Addicted

“Sugar is poison. It is a chronic… not acute… chronic dose-dependent… depends on how much you eat, because there is a safe threshold, hepato… ‘liver’… toxin.” -Dr. Robert Lustig

Hello, my name is Meg and I’m an addict. It has been three minutes since my last dose, but it’s about to be much, much longer.

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Today I ate a donut. Then I ate another one. And the crazy thing is I knew there would be donuts so I brought breakfast to work. I also brought lunch that I successfully prepped before the week began, and had planned a kale salad for dinner. I’ve been eating pretty well for a while, but when donuts (or cookies or brownies or… well, you get the idea) are available, I do a little dance in my head. And it goes a little something like this:

I don’t need it. But I’m an adult and I do what I want. But they’re empty calories. I’ll regret it. I… don’t…need…it…

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I’ve been eating sugar for as long as I can remember. Grew up on the stuff. Sodas and processed snacks and treats. When Kazaam made junk food rain from the sky, you bet your butt that was my new life goal. I eat it mindlessly, crave it constantly, and almost always regret it. It’s also the only thing in my diet that serves no purpose. It also has some clear side effects for me including instant headaches, exhaustion, excess oil produced by my skin, and breakouts. So I decided I need a solution. I’m going (mostly) sugar free.

The Rules

  1. I will not eat anything with added sugar
  2. I will be conscious of and limit my intake of “good” sugars including honey and agave
  3. I will allow myself one serving of food with added sugar per month

Now hold on. We’re just creating excuses with this “one serving a month” thing, aren’t we? No! I love food. I enjoy going to restaurants and celebrating life moments with dinner, drinks, and dessert. If I remove this completely, I remove something that I really value in my life. That is when I break and binge and this whole thing becomes a failure.

I really think I can do this. I don’t see a reason why I wouldn’t be able to. It will be hard, but I’m also hoping this allows me to eat mindfully and really value the food I eat. Anyway, away I go. Wish me luck!

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